I have a confession......MANY times I do not feel like I am cut out to be a pastor's wife. NOW....is one of those times.
I know. I know. It is just Satan trying to discourage me.....but it is real.
It is easy to be a pastor's wife when everything is going smooth. It is SOOO HARD to be a pastor's wife when Satan is working overtime in your church family. I know all of the right answers.........Satan ALWAYS finds the weakest Christian or the weakest link to jump in to stop a ministry when God is Blessing a Congregation. And, yes.....it is ALWAYS internal. We have a guards up and are ready to fight Satan out in the world............but when one of our members turns on us, it catches us off guard.
I know all of this...........
BUT...it is still VERY discouraging when your husband or your family is being attacked. I just want to say......BACK OFF.
Being a pastor's wife you know....The buck ALWAYS stops here. It might be the toilet running over...........or it might be feeling hurt...........or it might be misunderstandings.......or it might be major stuff, BUT, regardless...........the PASTOR ALWAYS gets pulled into it.
He is HUMAN. He gets upset sometimes too. He is sad sometimes. He is happy sometimes. Sometimes he is uplifted. Sometimes he is discouraged. Many times he is discouraged. He gets hurt. Most of the time he is lonely...........just talking to his wife is not always enough. Many times....he shuts down and has no one to vent to. In our case, he is a husband, a father, a granddaddy.........and has a secular job where he is under mega stress......he is a teacher, a pastor, etc.
I have all of the same feels, so many times it is hard for me to uplift him when I am down in the valley with him.
It is not easy being a pastor's wife......
BUT, EVEN in the VALLEYS, GOD STILL BLESSES US! It is not easy, but it is the path God chose for me. He never promised it would be easy....he just promised he would be there with me.
Thank you God for the valleys......because they make the mountains that much sweeter!!!!!!
3 comments:
Thank you for your honesty. As a wife to a new first time pastor, the past year has been very eye opening. I just have to keep telling myself, He (God) doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called. And I am SOOO a work in progress.
Thank you for your honesty. As a wife to a new first time pastor, the past year has been very eye opening. I just have to keep telling myself, He (God) doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called. And I am SOOO a work in progress.
Thanks for the comment. In January we will celebrate our 17th year at our church as their pastor. This is our first church to pastor............It's not easy....but it is rewarding.
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