UNWORTHY

CONFESSION TIME......


UNWORTHY.

That is me.

One of the ladies in our church has felt led to start a blog and has shared the blog with everyone on Facebook. 
I admire her courage and boldness.  She is a very tender, humble Christian lady.

She has posted three posts so far and has a large group following which consists of lots of the church members, friends, families, etc.

I enjoy reading her blogs.

CONFESSION.  Reading her blogs....make me feel even more UNWORTHY.

When Lana first asked me to join the Prime Rib Blogging team and represent the Bi-Vocational Pastor's Wives.....I told her I felt so unworthy.  I then asked her if she asked me so that everyone would enjoy the other ladies since she had "Four Beth Moore's.....and then, Kathy."  Smile.  I make YOU look good.

I still feel very unworthy.

I write.  I write what is on my heart.  I write as if it is my diary.  It does not bother me to write.  Rarely does anyone ever comment so I pretend no one reads them.

BUT....when someone comes up and mentions that they actually READ my blog.  I begin to second guess myself.  As long as I pretend that NO ONE reads them..........I can write.

I admire our sweet lady from church because she is sharing her blog with everyone.

• I have never told my church how to find The Prime Rib Blog. 
• I have never told my family how to find the Prime Rib Blog. 
• I have never told my friends how to find the Prime Rib Blog..  Because I feel so UNWORTHY.

I still even struggle with that feeling as a Pastor's wife.  I feel like the ladies look to me and come to me and I AM UNWORTHY....even after 20 years of ministry at the same church.

I am not even sure why I felt the need to write this blog..........except CONFESSION TIME...and because I am trusting that I will be only person that actually reads this and it helps me to write stuff down.  I am a list person.